Where have I been???

SO I have not blogged in a bit, why you ask? Well dumb really.....I spilled on my laptop and they keys were really sticky, They are a lot better. Been doing some cleaning on them. Now they are just a bit sticky.

So I decorated for Christmas. Here is a cute picture Meli in front of the tree!

Merry Christmas!

Flatt Stanley day one

I got flat Stanley today! He came from Arizona. My nieces class is doing a project.They all mailed flat Stanley's out to people who live somewhere other then buckeye AZ. He is to have so very fun adventures. It suppose to be Educational. I am suppose to take pictures of him in places and then email them and tell them about the place he went too!  I am going to have so much fun! First thing flat Stanley wanted to do was play with Meli. Here is his first picture! Come back and see what GREAT adventures flat Stanley is having!!!

Happy 2nd Birthday

Happy Birthday Buddy,
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you! I miss you so much and wish every day that you were here with us. Running around, playing with meli. Doing what little boys do. Scraping your knee and needing your mommy to kiss you better. Taking you to the park and watching you on the slides. Watching you make sand castles on the beach in Oregon this past June. I am missing you grow up. I am missing you be a little 2 year old boy. I am missing everything about you. Just to touch you again. Hug you, love you, snuggle you. Mommy and Daddy love you so much! WE miss you every single day!
Love you forever and Ever
Mommy

Blogging

I missed a day in my 30 day challenge! This is my blog and I can say what I want RIGTH?! YEP!!!
I have been thinking a lot about blogging. The reason I started "really" blogging, was to deal with my grief. When I lost Kenner, I didn't know what to do. When I felt so so sad, I would blog and I would feel so much better. I would feel like I would have a weight lifted off my shoulders. Blogging, really helped me through the rough part of my life. I also didn't blog about certain things that maybe I felt like I needed too! I think that maybe blogging is not as popular as it was then last year. I have really really struggled with blogging this year. Well really in the last couple of months. I went from having 125 followers on the old blog to 16 that has been kind of rough. I like getting the comments. The people I follow, don't blog as much anymore. Maybe I need to find a new batch of people to follow. Only problem is I miss my "friends" I have been introduced to so many wonderful people in the last 2 years. It has been so nice to have people who know how I felt what I have been going through! But life happens, in fact most of the women I follow have had or will be having their Rainbow. I would love to have my rainbow come into my life, but it has to be difficult. I know it was difficult for most to have their rainbows. But what I hate is that people who don't want children, or who don't take care of their children can have them. They can just get pregnant when ever they want. Those who want them so so bad have to have a difficult time having them. They have to struggle, they have to pay thousands and thousand for dollars for a child. Such is life right! So maybe one day soon, I will get my rainbow! I know I will! Really, I am just rambling and if your read all this thank you for sticking with me. Have a great day everyone!! Miss you all :)

Play Date

Meli and I went to the park and played with a bunch of dogs! She had a BLAST! She was worn out by the end of the night! She was there for 2 hours and met and played with a bunch of dogs! Here are a few of her new friends!

Worst Day

Yesterday's post was the best day of my life. Today, the worst day. While when Kj was born it was the best day of my life. It was also the worst day. The day my son passed away. The day, I became a mother, was also the when my first born child died. I had to wonderful hours of his life with him. I would say that the day started off GREAT but it didn't. The week started off with problems. Monday I went to the hospital spent 10 hours there. Then went to the dr at 9:30 at night. Tuesday, had some cramping. Wed had some cramping, went to the dr, then went to the hospital. Spent 2 hours there. Thursday, woke up with contractions a 2:00 am went to the hospital. I had an ultrasound done at 1:30 pm and was told nothing good. 5pm our angel was born. Our sweet Kj came to us, he taught us many things. He was so so strong, he was a fighter. He taught us that no matter how small your are, how short your life it to fight for it. He lived and Amazing 2 hours and 10 min. I already said this on yesterdays post. I miss him everyday. I miss him more then anything. I have days where I think, this was all a dream. This could not have happened to me. But it did, I had a son. He lived and then he Died at 7:10pm. My son died in my arms that is the worst day of my life!

Best Day of my Life

Can I have 2 best days? Why yes I can because its my blog. The first best day of my life, Was the day that K and I got married. It was such a wonderful day. IT was January 7, 2000. It was a cold day, but not snowy. My uncle married us. The ceremony seemed to take FOREVER, we had I knew you before I met you by Savage Garden play. We planed to stay the night at K's grandparents house. Someone found out and bought us a hotel room. We stayed at the Ben Lomond hotel. Got up early and drove out to California.
The second best day was they day I became a mother. I have never been so Happy in my entire life! Kj, gave me something. He taught me unconditional love. He taught me that I am stronger then I thought I was. I can go through life, I can push through, I can do anything, make it through anything. He taught me that no matter how small your are, you can do big things in life and death. I miss him everyday, there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. And that kids is the best day of my life! Well the two best days of my life!

5 Songs, WHAT!

Ok so today is 5 Favorite songs, WHAT I only can pick 5. This will be hard, how about I pick 5 favorite Singer/Songwriters. Much Better Idea, Hey this is my blog and I can choose what to blog about right! LOL

Number One, I am in love love love Tim Mcgraw. Her is my Boyfriend! I love his Voice.
Number Two, would be Chicago, My FAVORITE BAND!!
Number Three, oh my I just LOVE Elton John
Number Four, would be Rascal Flats
Number Five, last but not least Journey


I would add pictures, but I am LAZY and tired. Need some sleep. You all have a good night love ya!!

Childhood Memory

I remember when we got our trampoline for Christmas. It was set up in our driveway. With snow all over the yards. It was SO cold but I as SO fun to have. The trampoline got moved to the backyard. We didn't have grass in the backyard, it was just dirt. We learned to do backflips front flips. We would play break the egg. My dad would get on the tramp and bounce us so so High. One time I got bounced so high I flew off the tramp and into the dirt and rocks. I didn't get hurt. We would sleep out on the tramp, we even had a wedding on the tramp. Our dogs got married. We had such a good time with the tramp.We also would put a sprinkler under the tramp and jump on it while wet. It was super slippery but SO SO fun. I wish we could go back in time and jump and play like kids again. Such a life when you are a child. Boy do you get a wake up call when you get older.

10 places I want to go

Who doesn't want to go see this beautiful building

Hawaii, what more could I say

I would just love to go listen to the people talk in this country.

I know this is not just one place, but it is somewhere I want to go.

The Tour De France!

This would be a cool place to see

Since I was a little girl I have always wanted to live in New Jersey

Well here I am an adult, and I have yet to go there. One day

I would get to see one of my good friends if I went here

Why not?

Italy, pure perfection

and Florida!

The City

I live in a city by the name of Roy. 5 miles south of Ogden, Utah. Roy was first settled in 1873. The first post office of the area was established on May 24, 1894. The former names of the city include Central City, The Basin, Sandridge, and Lakeview. Roy was incorporated as a city on March 10, 1937. It was renamed after the son of a local school teacher called David P. Peebles. The city developed rapidly in 1943 during World War II. It is located in Weber County, which was founded in 1852.  It has some great places to visit. Like food, ah ya food. There is this place call Burger Bar. It has been featured on Triple D. Diners, Drive-ins, Dives. When I was younger, when we first moved to Roy. I was 11ish. The hamburgers at  Burger Bar were Massive. HUGE, I think now they are just a bit bigger then a regular burger. Their buns are home made, soft goodness. There is just something about that place that I LOVE. It takes me back to being 11 and having nothing to worry about. Check out some pictures of  Buger Bar go here.

Something to blog about

12 Facts about me:

1- I have naturally curly hair.
2- I NEED to have everyone like me
3- I am Terrified to get pregnant again
4- I want to be pregnant
5- I am not sure what my natural hair color is
6-  Right now I love my puppy more then anything
7- I still trying to loose baby weight
8- I call it baby weight but I gained this weight after I lost Kenner
9- I tell everyone I have green eyes
10- My eyes are really Hazel in color
11- I miss my son more then anything I have ever missed ever ever ever
12- I Do love my husband


* P.s. I am doing a 30 day challenge, good luck to me