Your babies didn't really die, sadly my baby really did....

I remember it like it was yesterday, However its been almost 4 year. Being in the ultra sound room at the hospital and being told your baby has no chance of staying inside. That you are most likely going to have this baby soon. You are just over half way with your pregnancy, you know there is no chance for your baby outside your womb. I thought it would be a couple of days. I was hoping for a week and a 2 days to make it to 24 weeks. However we only had hours. Hours to prepare for his arrival. He came so quickly and we were never prepared for him to come so soon. We were heartbroken when he left us after a few short hours.

My Question is, how bad can your life be that you want to "escape" life to fake this happening to you. NOT once but twice. Why fake this at all. I would never have chosen this journey. I would not wish this on anyone, not my worst enemy. SO to get a little background on this question is......

I got on Facebook on Monday, one of my friends asked for prayers for a fellow BLM (baby loss mom) Her husband had just been in a horrible accident and her 2 month old Rainbow was in the car with him. He suffered 9 broken bones and the baby had brain damage. They lost their Lily to cord accident about a year before. They had to make the heart breaking decision of letting their Chloe go after the accident. She had no brain activity. Now they are parents of not one but two dead babies. BUT are they really. No, after a day of speculation by several people it has come out that she was faking the whole thing. IT never happened. She had no Chloe and she had no Lilly. You can read more about it here.

I can't believe the lengths that people will go to get attention. I guess I just don't understand the logic of needing to fake stuff. I live this life everyday, I deal with the fact that someone is missing from my family. That I only get to raise one of my baby's. People are just CRAZY!!!!

May is gone june has begun

So here it is almost the middle of June. Kennadee is growing up super fast. She is starting to move around. Roll everywhere, getting on her knees wanting to crawl. More interested in standing then sitting. She is saying DA. We are trying to make that into a word. DADA. maybe soooo. She is always so happy, even when she is in a grumpy mood. She has been so much fun. She is ALMOST 8 months old. I can't believe it. She is getting too big. Here is some of my favorite pictures from the month of May.