huh???

36 weeks and we only have 6 days left!! AMAZING! I can't wait until next Tuesday. We will go to the hospital at some unreasonable hour and try to have this baby turn. If she turns yea if not c-section!! I am SO SO excited and can't wait! Our last dr appointment is tomorrow! I can't believe we are at the end. Though it was never going to happen. As each day ends we are just one day closer to meeting our sweet Kennadee!!!  I know this post is short BUT there is just not much to report for the last week. I have been getting a lot of contractions BUT nothing to write home to mom about!!! They however are starting to get painful, just every few hours apart. SO not even close enough to bother doing anything about! Other then that things are going great! Kennadee is a big girl and I will weigh less after her delivery then I did the day I got pregnant!! SO next weeks update wont come until we come home from the hospital I am sure and I will have pictures SO stay tuned!!!

A friend

I wanted to share with you a friend of mines blog. She is real life friend. I have known her for about 8 years or so. I went to school with her ex-husband. She is an amazing person. Her son Isaac was born still over 6 years ago and she JUST started to blog! I am so so proud of her for deciding to blog. It is such a release of whatever is going on in your head! SO go on over and check out As Fast As I Could! You will love her I know it!!! Maybe you will even decide to follow her through her journey of trying to conceive again and their journey of doing foster to adopt!!

Scared

You know as I get closer and closer to having this baby. I am more scared something is going to go wrong. That we wont get to bring her home. That she is going to stay with her big brother in heaven. I also miss Kenner even more right now. I am not sure if its because his birthday is coming up next month or that I am close to having his baby sister. I just wish he was here with us. That he was able to see his sister grow up and we were able to see him grow up with her. We should have a toddler running around. instead we have an empty house. Just the two of us. We can't wait for Kennadee to get here. To watch her grow. We never thought that this day was going to come for us. Will all that we have been through, trying to get pregnancy and  Losing Kenner. I just want her here safe in our arms. I know one day our whole family will be together. Until then.......I will hold one in my heart while I hold the other in my arms.

almost 35

Almost 35 weeks WOW!!!!!!  Well I am a bit behind at this blogging thing. I have just had a lot going on. Getting ready for Kennadee's arrival. She will be showing her beautiful face to the world on or around the 25th of Oct. Over the last few weeks we have had scare and thought that Kennadee was going to be here last weekend. Turns out I have a gallstone and nothing too serious. What.....you mean you don't know about what has been going on. Well let me back up. Almost 2 weeks ago, I went to see a GI dr. He told me that he thought I did not have Cholestasis of pregnancy. He thought that I could have a something else. Like , HELLP syndrome which he said was unlikely because of my blood pressure levels. I could have a blood clot in my liver OR Fatty Liver of Pregnancy. Which is a serious condition. Worse then Cholestasis of Pregnancy. And IF I had that, the baby would have to be delivered right away. I went for an ultra sound on my liver a week ago. They looked at all of my organs. I DO NOT have fatty liver of pregnancy, hence the reason I am still pregnant. I do have a 1.5 cm gallstone that will require me to have surgery after I deliver Kennadee. I will most likely under go surgery 3 weeks after she is born. I have been feeling pretty icky for the last few weeks. Just the not feeling good all the time thing. I know it has to do with the gallstone. I am still being treated for Cholestasis because we just don't know if the gallstone is causing all of my symptoms and problems. Better to be safe then sorry. I saw the MFM on Thursday and she does not want to do an amnio because no matter what we are delivering at 37weeks and she is not willing to take the risk of the lungs coming back not ready and having to wait longer. I have to talk to my OB about my induction date, and possible turning of Kennadee on Monday. She is still breech. On Thursday she was measuring at 37w4d weighing in at 7lbs 10oz. I was 34w2d on Thursday, so she is 3 weeks ahead. I do not have gestational diabetes. JUST A BIG BABY!! They wont deliver early because of her size. If she does not turn I will be having a C-Section. I really would like her to turn, BUT I just don't think there is any room in there for her to turn. SO most likely a C-Section will be in order! I have an appointment with the surgeon to talk about getting my gallbladder out on the 11th of November and a tentative date of surgery for the 16th of Nov. I am pretty excited about Kennadee coming in 2 weeks (17 days) and SO is Kyle of course. We want her here now, BUT knows the longer she is cooking the better it will be for her. I will try to be better about blogging. I know its not nice to keep you all in the dark! OH on a side note....I have lost another pound so I am now 2 pounds up from pre-pregnancy :)
Here is a picture of my belly from yesterday! Its not a good picture BUT it is my 34w3d belly with my 37w baby inside :)